As It Was

Each day I wake with firm desire.
I will not have a broken heart.
Later that night I will retire,
But no new place to start.
Every day it is the same
Tears being all that's new.
I know I'm not always to blame,
Since I can't please you
I try to do the impossible task.
Smile new days ahead
But it hurts to wear that mask.
My emotions are nearly dead.
Is it wrong,I want to die?
But not by my own hand.
I have nothing left to try.
So this is my last stand
Let me live,but with no tears.
Help my emotions soar.
As it was in earlier years,
Or better than before.